May 24, 2007

"I wiped the condensation of my 32oz., Coca-Cola.
'Hey thanks, what do I owe you?'
'Don't worry about it,' he said.
And as I smiled and said, "Thank you!" again,
the drink slipped from my hand.
The carpet flooring of the Toyota
absorbed the carbonated liquid,
and I realized how thirsty I actually l was."

"I walked into to work at 11:30, fifteen minutes late,
after dragging myself out of bed. Still groggy, I asked where I would be working today. They said, 'You're not on the schedule.'After double-checking, I saw that I was supposed to work on Tuesday,
and I had Monday off. My co-workers made fun of me, or said they were jealous, but I just laughed. I went home, watched a movie, and slept."

"For thirty-three years, we tried to make it work.
Though, you can't really try for thirty-three years...
We tried twice, maybe three times... Four at the absolute most...
No, we didn't try for thirty years, we gave up for thirty years.
By the end, I could mouth the words, "I love him," if asked by the Home School Association, or his pastor friends.
But mostly l wanted the searing pain of his presence to be removed from my flesh...
I wanted the cool air of freedom.
When he filed the papers, I told him, "I never wanted this! How can you give up on me!?'
He tried to tell me that I had requested them - demanded them! -- not six months ago.
Worthless bastard. I wouldn't have thought him capable of lying, but I suppose, at the end, he was that desperate.
That was three years ago, and I am looking for the love of my life. But, thinking back, he really was a good man."

There is no other human way
To appreciate what you have.

Lose it, by imagination, today;
And, losing, thereby love.

Glory to God Alone.